I grew up pretty shy and withdrawn. I was tormented with fear of people thought of me; I feared whether or not they would like me or accept me. The result is I often said nothing in an effort to be liked.
God’s Perfect Work
For years, God worked on me; challenged me; called me to do “hard” things in an effort to transition my confidence from humans toward Him and His strength in me. He showed me time and time again that I was of little use to Him if I could not muster the courage to share my faith, my testimony and yes….my, at times, my opinions.
It has been a long, difficult journey toward the limited liberty I now enjoy in Jesus. I have a long way to go, but one thing I am rarely accused of being is timid. I praise God wholeheartedly because deliverance was expensive. It cost me everything, but, it was well worth it.
Through His deliverance and healing, I’ve been able to speak before hundreds of people at a time without caring whether they would “like” me. He worked in me to boldly declare His greatness regardless of people’s faces (Check out Jeremiah 1:18).
Again, I have a long, long, long way to go to be who He has called me to be; but do know, that I’m committed to fighting my flesh and my will to stay on the alter. More than my comfort, more than my church tradition, more than my need to be accepted, I want to be pleasing to God.
Still on Subject
Have you ever thought about the story Isaac and his father Abraham? Long story short, the two of them hiked to a mountain to surrender a sacrifice. You may remember that Isaac was a blessing given to Abraham in his old age. Well, Abraham was old when Isaac was born, so when the story took place, he was even older. Point: an old man is not usually as strong as a young man, right? *Stay with me*
On that mountain, Abraham had to bind Isaac and then he laid him on the alter. Have you ever thought about that? No where in scripture does it say that Isaac struggled with being bound. He wouldn’t struggle because of His surrendered heart. He was surrendered to his fathers command, desires and direction.
You know where I’m going…
We struggle with our Father all of the time as He attempts to restrain us or still us. While He’s trying to do His work in us, we repeatedly disobey, rebel and maybe even “wiggle” off the alter because we want to be in control and comfortable.
Today I declare I will stay on the alter to allow God to complete His perfect (mature/finished) work in me. Will you?
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